Unhappiness season has moved on

I have a very good mood and happy today. Maybe the unhappiness season has finally moved on…

I was driving to work this morning, yes it was a long commute from West Sac to Fairfield, I was thinking I should be release because I finally detach my rebounder and I don’t need her anymore…..
Let me explain….

I was miserable last month about relationship, ex-married, and the broke up. Life seems like the end and I blame myself for it. Soon, rebounder appear, she is very pretty woman and the odd thing is she looks like one of my ex (the one I really love). She looks like her and sounds like her. We both used each other for filling the void of our heart. I knew we will never make a good couple and she is too complicated that I knew it would never work out. We had rules in this game, and I told her that the reason I like her because I got what I had lost in the past and feel good when people find lost things back. My rule is the day I start feeling in love that’s day I will leave.

I leave her couple weeks ago…

My Ex is getting married.

My friend told me to write it out.
My ex is getting married and it’s not like we ended on bad terms, we just grew apart. It has been bothered me for more than 2 weeks now. I feel moody, pissed off, and depress...
I have been dating different type of women in the past 2 years, but I haven’t found anyone serious yet. Each new girlfriend was totally different, and the reason is I want to find out what I really like.
I know I would never get back together and I let it go a while ago, but I can’t get past this right now. Why? I know I have a ton to offer someone, but haven’t found her yet, and that’s ok with me. I guess I feel cheated in a way. They not even dated a year and she is getting married.
Maybe I felt I lost the race, just not fair that I don’t have a serious someone.
Maybe I missed the feeling being in love.
I am very confuse and miserable right now...
Well, I do wish her the best and I am happy for her to find someone she really loves.